Bitterness ba? Christmas and New Year.

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As usual, there is the yearly issue of my Christmas and New Year vacation. And for the first time since I came to Manila to study and work, I will be celebrating my Christmas here in Manila. Alone. Without my family. If this had happened last year, it would have been all right because my brother and my sister-in-law were here. But this year, I get to spend Christmas by myself.

Our neighbors said that we will celebrate Christmas together. But it is still not the same. They are with their family and I am all alone. Yes, I am repeating. I am being redundant. Screaming that for the first time in my whole life, I will be spending Christmas without any of my family members with me. Is this an omen that I should get use to this?

But, good thing is, I will be going home the next day, on the 26th of December, I will be going home for the first time this year (2008). Yes, I haven't set foot in Bacolod for a whole year. I haven't seen my Dad for a year. I saw my sister and my mom because they came to visit here, in separate occasions, but then I saw them and was able to spend time with them. I will be there for almost 2 weeks. I am ENTITLED to a loooong vacation.

I find myself these days thinking if what I am doing is really worth it. Is my work worth it? Is being away from my family worth it? I work and work and work, and then what?

Actually, I love my work. I love the nature of my job. But.. (yes, there are buts), nevermind.

Is it really time for me to move on? I don't know. I keep on praying, asking for a sign, but I guess, I need to wait. I do hope that God will take away all this bitterness I feel right now.

Enough said about my yearly issue...